How do I totally surrender myself to you? I can't even trust the people around me much less someone I can't see. I don't like it when I don't have control of the situation. I do extra work and would rather do things myself because I have little trust in others and even less trust in myself. I want to love others, I want to trust myself, I want to know YOU. I know of you but I want to know you personally ... What makes you laugh? What makes you smile? How do you like your coffee. I know it sounds strange to want to know these things, but I do.
When I was in Hawaii I loved going to the beach because I was able to see how big and powerful the waves were. They showed me how little control I actually had over life. Tonight I stand in awe watching the rain, seeing the lightning And feeling the thunder. It reminds me of how small I am and how BIG God is.
Please continue to keep pulling on my heart, I hear you ;) and I'm coming, don't forget me yet.
Faith is a gift, it's an ability, an opportunity.
